I'm bored, just sitting here thinking about that amazing boyfriend of mine. And how much I miss him. I really wish that he could come to school instead of his doctor keeping him out of school for the rest of the year. Ugh. But on a less serious note .

I'm in second block listening to Booty Call by brokeNCYDE with Brooke who I love so dear...and that was Brooke but I seriously do love her like my sister and now she is laughing at my HORRIBLE typing.

Brooke, it is soooooooo not funny and this just in I can not laugh and type at the same time.......well peace

So I am making another page and it's gonna be about the book I am writing and im not copying Dustin in fact he's the one who gave me the idea to put it on here

OK, so I meant to blog about this yesterday but of course, I forgot.
i am not the most mature person in the world, but I sware he is so immature and I hate him I did NOTHING to him. But get a Lil of clean water on his jacket. I mean one it was just water and two it was cleaner than rain. He is just an immature freak, poser, wanna be emo, that I hate and he could vanish of the face of this earth for all i care. Who am I talking about? find out. He is the most immature person around. He cant be that hard to find.

"If you get mad at someone, take a step back, and then walk a mile in their shoes. That way you're a mile away and you have their shoes"
I heard it in 2nd Block yesterday.
It kinda actually has some real meaning to it.

Now on to the less serious part of blogging. Aaron the Shelwolfe is saying "Come on rude boy, rude boy, can you get it up, come on rude boy, rude boy, is you big enough, take it, take it, love me, love me."

Lol he is amazed by a moving usb port (i think that is what it is) on the computer tower. Now he's like "If I ever get drunk im proally gonna be one of those crazy drunks. Because he's always serious" Now he is quoting Jeff Dunham and he is quoting Peanut. lol.

He is taking someone for a ride on his big green tractor. lol
And now he is talking about well, he is quoting JEff Dunham it's still funny.

Lol the bigger the better and you would think that since i have been typing since the fourth grade I would know this keypad by heart =but obiviously and apparently im not and yes Shewofe I know that I suck at typing. I have had like 10 make that 11 typoes in this one sentence.

I'm taking over her typing now: (Aaron)
her toe hurts
micah is saying something about you push it very harder,brooke looks like she is interested in what she is typing and they are comparing wedges behind us.
(Notice i only had 6 typos)

I created a new it's a poems page if you want to read them do if you don't or you are gonna criticize then don't. These are from earlier in my life and I'm not depressed any more but it has been requested to make a poems page.

So let's start with Saturday, I was freakishly bored until 3:45 when Diane finally showed up. Then, she went to drop Ashley off at Mega Skate and left me and Chris there because there was some work to be done around the house (we sat around and watched Johnny Test). Then Diane finally got home and then we went ot the Atalla Wal mart and let me tell you I now officially like the Boaz one better. But when we got there I realized that my tracus earring had feel out. So I had to sit there and figure out how to get it back in. So we got Diane a phone card. Left, and then we got stuck by train on 77 (the one that takes 15 minutes on a good day). Luckily, we arrived right before all of it was passed so we only had to wait like 3 minutes. Which is way shorter of a time than I expected. While waiting at the train we decided to go visit Chris's grandma. And we goofed off, and played with the prettiest puppies ever. We stayed there until 10 when it was time to go get Ashley from Mega Skate. So I had to call grandma and tell her that I was going ot be a little late because there was no way that we were gonna make it from Rockledge to Albertville, to Boaz to drop Chris off at Alex's, and to back to Sardis by 10:30. We pick Ashley up and then we drop Chris off and we decide to stop by Mr. D's tattoo and piercing to see Chance, Diane's cousin. (BTW if want a tattoo or piercing done go there its a whole lot cheaper than Wal mart piercing). And to see if he could put my tracus ring back in, turns he was tattooing (the dudes first tattoo0 so Chances wife put it in. Thank god for Mr. D's tattoo and body piercing staff. So finally, we head to my house to drop me off at about 11 when Ashley states that she wants me to spend the night with her. and my grandma said yeah and of course being Diane she didn't care. Me and Ashley stayed up till like 4 goofing off and then we woke up at 8.
At about 9 we decided to go for a walk down Rockledge Road and then we walked Chris's dog and I got sunburned in some places and tan in others. Then after we walked like 6 miles we went into the house and got into our bathing suits and (this about 11 now)and go play in the water hose. And that water was obviously very cold then Ashley said that there was a small pool in the backyard that we could drag to the side yard and we went looking and being barefoot there had to be pointy thingies on the ground ( i think they're called stickers) then we eat and go back outside after 1 hour of insideness and we was trying to drown an ant when Chris and Ray and Alex pull up to drop Chris off and we all goof off until Diane got home from work. Then we went over to Ales's house to go swimming and it was fun, Chris,Alex and Ray thought that it would funny to pull the ladder out of the above ground pool. And pretend to throw the fish they had just caught at me and Ashley. Eventually me and Ashley got tired and Chris because he loves me put the ladder back in. Then we watched the cat give birth to kittens (BTW want a pretty kitty tell me and ill call Alex and tell him) and then I went in and sat with Chris while Alex and Ray played Call of Duty and then me, Ashley and Diane left to drop me off which brings me to now on where I am writing

This one is for ahshley because she loves this song and to be truthful so do I






Everybody's looking for love. Oh. Oh.
Ain't that the reason you're at this club. Oh. Oh.
You ain't gonna find it dancing with him. No. Oh.
Got a better solution for you girl. Oh. Oh.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and we'll go.
I'll be your teacher, I'll show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you'd never know.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head, You'll be screaming ohhhh
In my head, it's going down.
In my head, it's going down.
In my head. Yeah. In my head. Oh yeah.

Some dudes know all the right things to say.Ay ay.
When it comes down to it, it's all just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate. Yeah.
Get down to business and skip foreplay. Yeah.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and we'll go.
I'll be your teacher. I'll show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you'd never know.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fufill my fantasy.
You'll be screaming ohhhh
In my head, it's going down.
In my head, it's going down.
In my head.

Break it down. Ayo Come on. Ayo ooh Ayo.
You singing to me baby in my head right now. Ayo. Ayo ooh. Come on.
She'll be screaming out when it all goes down.

Just leave with me now. Say the word and we'll go. We can go.
I'll be your teacher. I'll show you the ropes.
You'll see a side of love you've never known.
I can see it going down, going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head.
You'll be screaming ohhhh.
In my head, it's going down.
In my head, it's going down.

In my head, I see you all over me.
In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.
In my head.
You'll be screaming ohhhh
In my head, it's going down.
In my head, it's going down.
In my head.

More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jason_derulo/#share

So me and Ashley are sitting in front of the computer screen listening to in my head by Jason Deruko (ashley is Chriss lil sis) well she's not so little cause shes our age.

But Im spending the night with her because Chris is over at Alex's and she will be bored tomorrow with noone there.

So im waiting for 3:30 to get here and I sware, even though its only a hour till then im getting impatient I haven't seen Chris since this time last week and I miss him majorly. Which is why Im getting impatient. I already knew that patience wasn't one of my specialitys but I didn't know that it was this bad (ok maybe i did) but still. It's ticking me off that the stupid clock won't magically turn to 3:30...
Ugh, times never passes well im gonna go play a game now so






PEACES

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

You're sick of feeling numb
You're not the only one
I'll take you by the hand
And I'll show you a world that you can understand

This life is filled with hurt
When happiness doesn't work
Trust me and take my hand
When the lights go out you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Anger and agony
Are better than misery
Trust me, I've got a plan
When the lights go off, you will understand

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing, rather feel pain

I know, I know that you're wounded
You know, you know that I'm here to save you
You know, you know I'm always here for you
I know, I know that you'll thank me later

Pain, without love
Pain, can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all

Pain, without love
Pain, I can't get enough
Pain, I like it rough
'Cause I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain than nothing at all
Rather feel pain

........is offically the wierdest person that I have ever met. He's talking to headphones. lol ahewolfe is about to kill him....wait that isn;t good because im stuck in between the two and aaron has to go through me to get him..... lol Jared is attempting to read.....Somebody is apparently in hostile territory?./..What's Flight 182? Whatever it is it is apparently turning him on because he is sweating.....now he is pretending to j......nevermind if guys really know him you'll know what he is doing.

Him and Shewolfe had a word fight....Aaron burnt his bacon by saying it takes one to know one lol God, im sooooooooo friggin bored.




This just in never talk to Jared when he has headphones on.

He just discovered that flight 182 is dead
Lol shewolfe said that Jared slept with captian
This just in Flight 182 ro back alive

If they were ever dead

So none of you guys know this but a few days ago, one of my grandmother's got in a bad wreck, she flipped her car 60 feet, downhill. She's at UAB, with 5 broken ribs, 3 fractured ribs, a bruised spleen, a punctured lung, a broken hip, a crushed pelvic bone, a crushed spine, and a big slash across her forehead, yesterday, she wasa put under a medically induced coma.My aunt Cat said that it would be a miracle if she lives.
It has really upset me lately, and I can't seem to get it off my mind. Chris has been the only able to make me really smile since I found this out. I don't know what ima do if she dies. She was like my best friend, the only person (besides Chris) that I oculd tell anything to and she would not judge me. She understood what I did for what state of mind I was in and she never judged me as a person. She accepted for who I was and noone else.
She was a woman of God and always did what her instinct told her to do.

Everyone loved her. She lived life and she lived every second of it well.

She's the only person I know that didn't take a single breathe for granted.

Ew! ok, so we had to dissect sharks in first block and my hands and so do shewolfe hands smell like fish and it just about made brooke barf.lol

And this one is to the friends Brooke is getting a blogger she has a account but not a blog because the computer is being stupid


In other news, Joel is not that bad, i was talking to yesterday and he was nice. I didn't think that he could be but, he actually is.

SO today, in first block we dissected. Well, my frineds did but instead of choosing the alternate assignment ( a bunch of work). I decided just to get in a group, answer the questions for the group and not destroy the insodes of the animal of victimazation a starfish. because the group I was in, they love to dissect so, they were already dissecting and the starfish was already gonna get slaughtered.
But, it's not going against my beliefs just getting a bunch of stuck up preps off my butt for my beleifs.

And they didn't even say a word to me and I still have the satification that I didn't slaughter an animal

I am surrounded by the most annoy, immature, people in this small town.
Called jocks, and their names would be Toby Pee, Seth Smith, Dexter McKinney, Dylan 'trick' Whitlock, and Trevor Pullen. Thye found some old used dip cans, and theyare pretending to dip like the duece-bags that they are.
Majorly idiotic, if you ask me I find absolutely no humor in this crap at all.

it's majorly immature, they are mabye just a lil more immature than the people that hit Dalton in the back of the head with an apple a few days ago.

Do people got a problem with if I am blogging or not it's not like it's about him well, now it is, (that Joel kid)

I guess, I would be his friend if he was nice to me but I see no point in being nice to him if he's mena to me.

hey, he just thanked me for not calling him a jerk but i dont know if I called him one or not.

IMA go check peace

Everyone has them, and some show it more than others,

Some try to hide it, some better than others , some let it show, in their actions, in their thoughts, I guess most poeple tyr ot hide it but why, I know exactly why, they don't want to letanyone in.

Love- A beautiful word, it can mean so many things. It's the truest passion that anyone can ever have/feel.

In Love- Yes, loving someone and being in love are to different things take it from someone who has experience and a lot of it.

Hate- The complete opposite of love, almost as passionate love some say more passionate.

Like- Basically a friend, someone that you can get along with that is of the opposite sex that you could never see yourself with.

Dislike-Not as passionate as hate because, you can stand to talk to them and can be in the same room as them without going insane or completely mad.

Sad- upset, wants to cry all the time

Happy- A cover-up for being sad.

Angry- Leads to hate,

Yes it is finally Friday and it's a lil over 24 hours before I'll be with my baby:)
You proally can't even imagine how happy I am!!!!!!!!!!!it's 11:14 so ima go







Peaces

And now he is looking at me like I am an idiot we are listening to Steamy Windows (one of Morgan's favorite songs) by Tina Turner...I think that I am going to make him listen to Schizophrenia by BrokENCYDE ( and yes the capitalization was on purpose)


So anyway I think that I broke my pinkie. Aaron just got a VERY disturbing image in my head even though I have never met his dad.lol.....
I am hungry.

Ha Ha he's listening to it now! (no comment on this song)
I like and it's funny oh wait till he hears Bree, Bree and the screamo version of low!


brokENCYDE Will never die!!!!!!!!!!

I think that I might be done blogging now, wait no, I don't want to I want to write down his reaction to the other two...lol i tried to use too instead two.

Lol he actually likes low by them.

It's so much better if you ask me because you can understand what they are saying





LOL I need to learn how to spell....
Now we're listening to forever young by jay-z and mr.hudson...If you want to know the lyrics go to Dustin's blog......and if you want to know the lyrics to brick by boring brick you can visit him and he is you're man.


OMG! now were listening to Mockingbird by Eminem.

OMG! Shewolfe hates skillet! One of there songs is mine and Chris's song (The one) check it out


Now ima go



PEACES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im so excited the weekend is almost here! Yes just one more day until I get to spend almost my whole day with my baby! He's so amazing it's unreal. I truly do love him no matter what people say he is my one and only.



And for all of my friends out there reading this me and Tandra no longer friends.
Some words were said,it was almost a full fight I told her to stay out of life and she said to stay out of her's. I guess I knew it was coming, I lost my "so-called" "best friend"
I got a new one though, see my friend, Lita, is having trouble with one of her friends that I can not speak of and/or what it is about dye to the fact yhat Lita will hurt me.


Oh and Chris if you're reading this and to anyone that wants to know you had nothing to do with me and Tandra. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me:)

So I'm sitting here in third block in Mrs. Strickland's class but with Coach Sanderson as my teacher. Me and Savannah are doing a PowerPoint project on the Bermuda Triangle. Boring, dude my boyfriend is in this class. I already knew that but still it's kinda cool.
Dude I keep on miss spelling words, so i will finish this blog after lunch

OK lunch is over let me tell you about the adventure me and Savannah just had, so we get back from lunch and Mrs. Strickland's class is gone, so naturally he door is locked. But there is a back way through Coach Obar's computer lab so we try that and that door is locked too. So we go looking for Hunter Johnson (The only kid that pick every lock but one door in this school because the lock is backwards) but we could not locate him and lover Hunter Tolleson lol.
So we eventually find Coach Sanderson in the hallway of course? Where else would he be then we asked him if he had a key to the computer lab, and naturally he said no. We asked him who would and he said proally one of the janitor's and pointed us in the direction of Joe (one of the many janitor's not needed in this small school)

So of course, being Joe, he had to hassle us, asking who's room? Mr. Glenn's I don't think that I know him and we was like no Mrs.Strickland and then on the way to the room he was trying to con us out of five dollars.
Now, me and Savannah are sitting here the only people in this lab and there was just a knock on the door but there was no one there weird..
But my point was that's how much trust the school has in us, we just asked and they let us in the computer lab just like that.

OK, so We are in Mrs.Strickland's class and we were waiting for Keri to unjam the printer because my paper handout thingy jammed it up (what else is new it does it all the time)
But Keri was talking about how she was tyring to get some dude from Illinois to move down because he is supposedly hot but I don't know because I got a boyfriend



Jared is spitting on the floor

But anyway, back to the point. I ALMOST FELL FACE FIRST OUT OF THE CHAIR and Keri and Shewofe thought that it was funny but I didn't because KERI'S FOOT WAS IN MY FACE!
SHEWOFLE IS SINGING STEAMY WINDOWS!

Jared Shirley is beside me arguing with Rachel and according to her he is humping the car? That is well, normal i guess.......And yes if you're wondering i am at another computer because me and Shewolfe are helping eachother or he's talking to me like im actually listening while im blogging like a man woman
THIS JUST IN JARED SHIRLEY IS APPPARENTLY GAY!
Jared just pulled his phone out and it has a flower cover on it? ok that would be normal

the url to chriss is and just in case the link doesnt work the url is http://tapout93.blogspot.com

Well so guess what I just found out that my baby (chris) has a blogger as of today and if you want to follow and/or check his blogger out his url is ok I have no clue if the link worked so tell me if it does

I am pretty sure that boredom can kill. No matter how many people say that it can't I don't care I am right and that is the end of it. I mean right now I'm listening to Bring me back to life by Evanescence, playing gluey at and blogging and I'm still bored but i gtg
PEACES

I wanted you to know I love to way you laugh
I want to hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I want you hold you high and steal your pain

Cause im broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're nowhere
You've gone away
You don't feel me here anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I want to hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and noone there to fight
I want to hold you high and steal your pain

Cause im broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like im strong enough
Cause im broken when im lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Cause im broken when im open
And I don't feel like im strong enough
Cause im broken when im lonesome
And I don't feel right whne you're gone away



This song was in my head so I ahd to check it out I was not coping anyone

So I didn't go to school today because I had a doctors appointment. So anyway, grandma had just left for work and paw paw was watching some western TV show and I was Reading my book, The Host by Stephanie Meyer, and the phone rings, scars the beejesus outta me and it was grandma and what does she say that there is snake in the driveway. Sure, after we moved (we being my paw paw and himself) we looked it up and it was a harmless king snake. But it was still a snake. Oh!!!!!!!!!!! And I saw 2squirrels and a rabbit!

So I right when I get off the bus this afternoon here comes Cat and I have to watch her kids Kaitlyn and Emily because her husband, Ryan, had court in Ontenta and I had to watch them till just now because I just put them to be. Some times it annoys me I mean, I know that it helps her out but I am just a 15 year old and there only so many things I can handle before I go crazy(er) than I already am. And top of that it took me FOREVER to get a hold of Chris so I was FREAKISHLY bored until I finally got a hold of him because you know he wasn't school today.
Oh BTW, Me and Sabrina are friends again and the reason Tandra is mad at me is because I said that Matt proally didn't really love her. But in my opinion that is what I think and I am allowed to have my own opinion.

Of all the times that I have mentioned Micah I have always just been calling him an idiot or something so I want to take these few minutes to describe Micah for the good person he actually is.
He is pretty cool and he makes this boring class easier to get through.
Speaking of class that I am i right now so i gotta go
PEACES

This week will never pass!
God, it's only Tuesday and Im already anticipating this weekend.....
What is so important about this weekend you ask? Chris is coming to pick me up at noon Saturday and I don't have to be home till 10:30 at night
Which means no annoying duece-bag pawpaw that yells at me for every little thing I do or don't do in most cases.
It's going to be so fun because it will be our 2 month and 3 week anniversary!
It will be the first time that we get to spend one of those anniversaries together considering that we broke up for lil over a week and got back together on a Saturday I guess it means that we will spend our 3 month anniversary together next week. And I don't know about ya'll but that is a long time to me.
But anyway the only downfall is due to the fact that pawpaw saw what a living dead person I was when me and Chris broke up he no longer likes him so I can only spend one day of the weekend with him...which totally sucks because before we broke up I usually got to, on Fridays that i didn't have to watch kids I would go over there twice a week which kinda sucks majorly because I do not have to watch kids this Friday...So ima be majorly bored without him.

This just in Aaron the Shewolfe Smith-Main is annoying.
That is all I have to say on this subkect considering he's not really that annoying. He's just a six foot hairy, tall giant. That is a shewolfe

Ugh, jocks are so stupid,they need to grow up. I mean me and my friends are freshmen and we are more mature than they are and they are juniors!
They throw like grapes and stuff at us and they get by with it but since this is a southern school since they play a sport and we don't they get by with it and we of course wouldn't, not that we would stoop down to their level of immaturity.
Like today, we were sitting a lunch minding our own business, and all of a sudden Dalton, drops his apple and his plate like goes flying, come to find out later it was beause those stupid jocks threw a apple and it hit poor Dalton in the back of the head.
It aggravates me! Because they get by with everything just because thye play a sport. Well, you know what, at least we actually earn our grade.

So im pretty sure that Shewolfe over there is talking about crack with Jared Shirley. But you never know I could be wrong.
Micah, oh, Micah, I feel so sorry for him he can't focus for any longer than I can (which is 3 seconds for those of you who don't know me)
Oh Jesus, all that Mountain Dew is catching up with me I goota PEE!


Jared Shirley is wanting Aaron to touch his blood and no Shewolfe touching someones touch would not give you aids. Because if it did you would get it from making out.

Jared Shirley is now texting in the middle of second block.
HAHA! Shewolfe wants to strangle him lol.
Jared is amazed by a gum wrapper, weird

Lately I have been confused about a lot of things mainly just life, where I stand, and what kind of person that I really am.
I'm still not sure about the who I am but I think I know who I want to be as a person, as a friend, or archenemies and this only applies to two people (Tandra and Sabrina)
And let's take a moment to say that Shewolfe just made me almost fall out my chair and my face just hit the wall.
But anyway, I that I am a good person, but you never know for sure, my ex best friends ( Tandra and Sabrina) oh, how I hate them.They say that I am not a good person because I deafened that boyfriend of mine (as they would say), Chris, but she shouldn't have yelled at him like that she no right to do that
Anyway, that was majorly off subject.
Micah just said that blogging is stupid how dare he?

But back to the subject, even though I am quiet confused about a lot of things, I somehow am satisfied with this confusion. And I guess that is how it is going to have to be for now. Because I can't seem to find the answer that I am unconsciously looking for.
And yet there is still that big hole that something is missing in my life. Which is why im so confused.

Lately, I have been having a lot of problems with trying to find who I really was in myself. It's took a lot of time(like almost over a month) It's been a crazy trip trying to find who I really am, and Ive discovered a lot of things about myself that if it wasn't for my amazing friends that I love so much (thanks guys your awesome) I wouldn't've figured out by myself...
Although, my friends have been a major influence on me, my boyfriend, Chris has made the most difference in my life. He has taught me to never to take anything for granted, because the things that you have can easily pack up their bags and leave.
My friends, they don't understand the way he does and I'm glad that I met him...
So for now, Ive got a new philosophy,
Be yourself, and those who don't like it's their loss, not yours
And another:
Giving up doesn't aways mean you weak, it just means that your strong enough to let go.

Have you ever been caught between who you are and who you want to be?
Lately life has just been so confusing and I don't know how to handle it.Should I just go with the flow or do I stand up for what I know is right?
Do I let destiny flow or do I make my own history. Who do I let write my story me or someone else.


How would I be remembered as if I was to not wake from my sleep?
Would it be good or bad?

Do I change my ways or do I stay on this road that leads to nothing good at all?
Do I move away from everything I have ever known, needed and loved to make something of myself? Am I scared? Yes, why you say?
Everything used to be so easy, I knew what I wanted and I knew exactly how to get there....Now, I don't even know the girl I am looking at in the mirror.
I love the people around me. They are the only ones that keep me from pulling this trigger that I have had ahold of for so long now.
Do I stay who and how I am to rekindle my relationship with God?
Will he take me back? With all the scars and marks that have been left on this body that I call mine.
The Bible says that he forgives all sins, but I still wonder, What if I have gone too far?
What if he doesn't believe me when I say that I have changed?
I guess my point is I am not the same girl as I was....And I don't even know if I'm proud who I am.

Why do we fear?
Why do we love?
Why do we hurt?
Why do we hate?
Why do we show emotion?
Why do we care?
Why do we stand for what we believe in?
Why do we cry?
Why do we laugh?
Why do we smile?
Why do we frown?
Why do we roll our eyes at the hidden truth that is plainly sat right in front of us?
Why do we over-look the obvious?
Why do we get angry?
Why do we punch things?
Why do we hurt each other?
There is only one obvious answer to all of these questions: We are only human.
We fear for others, not ourselves
We love others, and could care less about ourselves
We hurt for others losses, and mourn for ourselves.
We hate so we don't let anyone in so we don't get hurt.
We care because we're human and it's what we do
We stand for what we believe because we know what's right
We cry for our losses to heal from the pain
We laugh because it's a human reaction
We smile to trick people that we are actually happy
We frown because we are tired of lying
We roll our eyes at the hidden truth because it's what they want us to do
We over-look the obvious because we're not perfect
We get angry because it's another reflex when we're upset
We punch things to let the anger out
We hurt each other so no one will try to let their selves in

God, this town is so boring..........
They say life in a small town is interesting and you get to grow up slow...yeah right
There's no life to this place.........seriously
I mean it's Saturday afternoon and I have got nothing to do normally I would be at Chris's but one I was there yesterday and two his mother Diane has to work double shifts.........
We really need some life to this town there's like nothing to do............
There's like no hang out place around here besides Jamoka's and Wal Mart and I only have my permit so I can't drive anywhere..............Stupid driving restriction.........

So me and my friends Tandra( who I've been friends with since the fifth grade) and Sabrina are mad at each other and I so hate them their ugh!
They are supposed to be my friends but obviously they are not.........
Every little thing that happens to them they expect me to say sorry but every time I need something or im upset........it is my fault and they hate me
I mean Sabrina was talking about my boyfriend so naturally I cussed her out
It 's not my fault she shouldn't have been talking about him...And that's it
It is not my fault that she is being a whore and got her phone tooking up and then Tandra she just sided with Sabrina i guess just because she's jealous because my boyfriend actually cares about me...........this is why I'm contemplating anti socialism

Lately i have realized that everyone is trying to control somebody.
They expect you to bow down to authority just because they are bigger than you,
Well, I have got news for y'all folks that try to control me it aint gonna happen
They say do this or do that ant then if its not good enough they yell and they yell and they think that we'll listen just because they yell but its not.
All it does is gets most of us aggravated, especially when you live down here in a southern small town like i do
big cities are trying to tell us what to do and then they think that we'll actually listen well we ain't gonna.

Also, what's with all the murders lately
It seems like someone is always killing someone or killing themselves and it makes me mad

So.......people around here pay darn good money, for us to do this, (Sit here and blog pointlessly till your fingers fall off)
For example me Aaron, and proally Dustin are on blogger right now maybe Juan too and maybe Cheyenne but, idk because it looks like she is playing a game.........
But she's on the other side of the room so I do not know for sure
I mean sure, yeah iv learned a few things but some of the stuff i have knew since the first grade so it does not really count.................but I did learn how to excel, access, and that is about it because that's alll that we have covered beside powerpoint and word that i didnt already know
But right now, everoyone is either playing games or blogging or they are ,like Madison Brooke Rainwater, who I just woke up,
She just told me to read between the lines!!!!!!!!!!!!
maybe I don't feel like reading,
LOL like im toatally not typing.....which involves reading lol

ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Monkeys in the closet...............
What are they doing in this closet???????That I do not know nor, do I want to find out...............the boredness is about to kill me

Im going crazy(er) than I already was.................
No pengiuns DO NOT EAT ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THE ALIENS ARE COMING TO ATTACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!]
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM SURE
CHAS

This is just to inform ya'll that shewolfe (Aaron) has made a blog
http://thetruthaboutlifewithaaron.blogspot.com
thank you (i couldn't get link thingy to work ok)

Once again me, Juan, Shewolfe (Aaron), Dustin, Cheyenne, and Lita have to suffer the boredom of Mrs. Strickland's 2nd Block Business Tech Applications class (it's a required class ok)
There is like nothing to do but blog and play physics games....ugh, can you say BORING????????????????????
I can B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Last Block we went to the biology lab and we discussed
GAME NIGHT!!!!!!!!
And then that Dustin kid broke a lab drawer at that lab table we were on it was lol..
Well, it techinically wasn't broken because he somehow fixed it
Well there's like nothing to write about so
PEACE SUCCASSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gahhh, PowerPoint is so easy a Micah could do. lol.
No seriously, IT IS
Have you ever had to do it?
Micah is making it out ot be SOOOOOOOOO hard but it totally isnt



So yeah im in second block, yet again,
And im suffering from the major boredom diease....


I really think that it's a teenager thing with the boredom.................
Why is it soooooo cold in here.....

So im going to go play filler at http://physics/games.net
So peace

A lot of things have happened over this weekend and ive been so exicted/busy that i havent been able to blog lately....and the fact that i want to go over to my boyfriends house this weekend so i havent ask to get on the computer because then it would just be another excuse for my pawpaw to say "no". So yeah obviously im at school.
So let's start with Friday, I was folding towels and decided that i wanted to go to the dance that the band was sponsoring so I asked if I could go and pawpaw said "yes" that I just had to get a ride so I got Matt Bruces's dad, Lee, to drive me.....I danced and saw my bestest everest gay guy friend that dropped out there, Jacob Conner, he dyed his hair blonde, got a tattoo, and got his lip peirced...How cool is that???? Then I needed a ride a home so Chris Hawkin's mom dropped me off at my house and Mathew Rainey was in the car because he was staying the night at Chris's
Saturday, I watched kids, cleaned the house, and me and Chris (not Hawkins) got back together I was so happy. (which is why I was cleaning so I can go over to his house) Then I went to bed at 9:30
Sunday, I cleaned like the house and I did the impossible the one thing I said that I would never do. I cleaned my pawpaw's bedroom and his dustiging bathroom, ugh, then my cousins came over.
Then I go up this morning, went to school, and now im in 2nd Block but im done typing now because my hands are freezing so peace suckass