SO there's this thing hooked to back and it vibrates. It makes me feel like a robot lol. I think I have just past a little insane. But at least I always have a good time because what would life be like if I wasn't just a little crazy? But yeah, I'm like so bored and I have like nothing to blog about besides the fact that I feel like a robot..bye

I hate being sick. It's so sad. I'm so bad, Mrs. Golden even asked me what was wrong because I wasn't my normal super duper happy self. Do you know how weird it is when a teacher knows when something is wrong with you. She even let me put my head down and she NEVER let's ANYONE do that like, you have to stand up even if you just put your head down for a nano second. But I love Mrs. Golden, she's so hilarious, the things she talks about because we are like super ahead so we will not get to ahead are awesome. School is pretty awesome I have art survey so that always calms me down getting to do my three favorite things without getting in trouble, draw, listen to music and talk non stop because it is a creativity class. I really wish we could take it every year. But unfortunately, I can't it's just a required 10th grade class. But it's like awesome :) Not to mention Sunday, me and Tyler will be together for like five months. That is like the longest relationship I have ever had...I have also made a lot of friendships and one specific enemy that you of my best friends know who..WHich I would be friends but, NOO it's a crime for two people to get along so yeah bye before I say too much and you guys will know who I am talking about.

Screams, yells,
IS it normal?
Am I ok?
I see a light,
wtf, Am I crazy?
Is it in my mind?
AM I realy depressed
Or a figment of my imagination?
am I ever fine?
Will I ever truely live?
This is what had been on my mind lately

Such a hectic week... Tyring to balance everything I am starting to think that it is almost impossible. Trying ot find a cool looking somewhat mature template. That is so hard. Not to mention, that I feel like I am failing history which, I know that I am not, but still, it's just so impossible and hard to manage. Homework, kids, and so much things that are on my plate. Not to mention that I have been trying to think about what I am going to do with my life.
And seriously don't know I am starting to realize that I am getting older and these years are the years that matter the most on what college I get into and these graduation exams are so hard. I feel even those I passed the two I took that I just barely passed them.
Oh, my, so much to think about and I can't do it without God on my side, it's so hard to say but so easy to let go...That Devil,he's out to ruin my life. SO there are 5 things I am trying to do get commited, use charity (Church term for love),get desire, bring the fire, and something else that I forgot..well that is all I have to say bye

I haven't blogged in about forever..SO I will, Thursday was mine and Tyler's 4 month anniversary...But I have became a very opinionated person who is trying to correct their grammar. After all, I am in the 10th grade.And I am not one of those barbaric football players that always seem to get by with EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING. You don't believe me, ask any of the other people that go to my school..Or at least the civilized ones. Spell check is now my friend, now Facebook needs to get it. It is very hard to please the GRAMMAR5OH..Oh Dustyn, Ema, Juan, Shelly, and Aaron...Ha ha Bama finally got beat. I find this quiet hilarious,others do not. Now I have to deal with the madness that is going to go on Monday
I think I have found myself go call me emo, screamo, punk a whore anything I do not care .. I am me..I am more importantly a Christian..And to those this my concern, saying something about God and praying for 20 seconds does not make you Christian, Christian is the way you act, speak, think, right and most importantly who you are when no on is around..and not being afraid to start crying when you are overwhelmed by the Lord All Mighty Savior. I admire them about trying to change their ways but you can not change when you're friends around and when they are not
"Deny in front of your friends ,deny me of your father"
He sees everything you do,he hears every thought you have. And also I have learned not to judge
"Judge not, and you shall not be judged."
I am not afraid to tell you what I think about you and you will know if I don't. Os if I haven't told you that I don't like you I probably do..but anyway bye

Eminem definately. What brought this up was today in Mrs. Goldens fourth block class she asked us that. And it got me thinking when she said and why would you want to meet that person..Mine's obvious he's been through a lot just like me and he doesn't rap about drugs and sex like most rappers do. I can relate to him in many many ways. I have always looked up to him since I was little and started listening to it. Yeah his music isn't nice.But it tells life for how it is ..HArd, never easy and that nothing is given to you that you don't have to pay back.. He's not perfec tin fact he's far from it, but neither am I. Every time I hear one of his songs it's like I feel so much better because it just lets all my anger out. Another reason I like him because when he's talking about Haley I can just relate so much. So he's not the best ido. But he is the best for me it's like he knows me ...

So as most of you guys now today was the first day of school. It was pretty awesome if i must say it was freeking awesome! Sophomores rock! I met a new girl her names Hollie Lusk, I can feel the excitement of a new friendship...Me and Tandra are friends again..Stupid policy on no spikey mohawks what's Eric gonna do with his hair now?
The whole day was pretty hectic but i was glad to see that I have Health with most of friends...we might not have to take arts survey considering we had another arts class (Theatre toture last semester)..I guess something good came outta that class..Lunch was pretty cool i got to see TK who i haven't seen in what seems like forever..Which is ironic because he is my neighbors cousin and I usually see him all the time.
But all in all it was pretty cool but ill ttyl